Crazy things are happening. And I have been spiritually exhausted. This morning I asked for a spiritual nap, and God said no. He told me that he gave me this strong heart to run after him without stopping for a reason. He said that I will have constant spiritual revelations for the rest of my life, and if I turn to him and rest in him, I won't need to stop and "nap." First off, what the heck is a spiritual revelation and how is it a revelation if they occur all the time, and why can't I nap?! I'm in college, I like naps. To this God really just said that he will reveal all things to me in time, and he laughed at my nap comment. At least someone thinks I'm funny.
Last night was world mandate tour, woot woot! And can I just say...he's got the whooole world in his hands. When I asked God for my country he said no. He gave me a more specific region, just not a country. But he told me that I am not supposed to know, because someone else will, and that someone will be really important to my life. WHAT?! By this point I was like...RUDE! What is the country? Who is this person? And why is he or she so important?
God knows my heart. As soon as I started to question my understanding of what he was, he explained himself. How legit is that? He is God, he doesn't have to explain himself to me, but he did. He told me that we were really going to start working on my control issues, and things are going to happen on his time, not mine. I know he's good, and his plan is perfect; I trust him, I really do, so I have to let go of my life 100%. I really have to let go of the final straw, and that is totally what I'm doing now. So I'm letting go, and I know he will catch me. There is no doubt in my mind.
After world mandate, some of my awesome friends started declaring healing over my knees. It was intense, because I felt the Holy Spirit, but nothing was being healed. NOT. OKAY. So I asked if he was going to heal me, and he said no, and literally the next second, Josh got a word that there was something blocking healing and I knew immediately that I needed to talk to my dad about some things. God wants to finish healing my soul first, and his will is perfectly okay with me. It's all a blessing. He wants me to have all of his peace and security first. Jeremiah 33:6 says, "Nevertheless, I will bring health and healing to it; I will heal my people and let them enjoy abundant peace and security."
Are you noticing a pattern here? By saying no to me, God is getting me to say yes to him. I am no longer under the chains of planning for tomorrow, because my Father has that under control. I will live each moment in itself to glorify my king. I am so hungry for him, and he has come right now, so nothing else matters.
P.S. I don't need a nap anymore.
Monday, March 28, 2011
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Sucker Punch!
Tonight I went to a worship night where God totally gave me the sucker punch to the face that I begged him for this morning. I kid you not, I asked to be continuously sucker punched in the face by the Holy Spirit, and God, being the provider he is, delivered just that. It's so nice to know that there is a man in my life who wants deep, meaningful relationship with me, and will give me just what I need, just when I need it. Jesus is so good. And he is the only one who could ever do this.
This week specifically, I have just surrendered everything to the Lord and asked desperately for some direction. I didn't even know what for, but he knew. I was horrified to join a lifegroup, but he made a way and sent me packing. And through that, he has given me the most amazing community of believers in three days, three days. Faith does not go unrewarded, friends. It was through my awesome new lg amigos that I was given the opportunity to spend the better part of three hours worshipping and loving on the Lord. There is no better way to spend a Saturday night.
So in these two new experiences, as well as a song in my car this morning, I got my sucker punch. Straight shot, right to the face. God told me three times now that the good things I have been asking for but feeling like I am unworthy of, are coming, and they are coming quickly. I don't even know what these things are! I have just been asking for his favor and for his wonderful plan for my life to continue on. And I still don't know what it is he has promised, but I know that because he has promised it, it will come and be great when it does, because it will be for his glory.
I really just feel like I stepped out of my comfort zone this week because he asked me to, and he has rewarded me. He wants you to know that he will do the same for you. He is calling out to each of us, all we need to do is take that step and he will hold us up in his grace and mercy. He is inviting us into his holiness and love! I think we need to take a second to weigh the gravity of this truth. The Creator of the universe wants to love us and pursue us; his son wants to romance you and marry you. Just say yes, and he will hold your heart and care for it as you grow and bloom in his Spirit. I promise you will never be able to go back, and you will never want to.
Please just know this: when you give God everything, it has to be done with all your heart. Matthew 6:24 says, "No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate one and love the other, or he will be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money." You cannot have a love affair with God and still give way to worldly desires. You can't half-heartedly be in a relationship with the King of Glory. Pursue him with everything, and you will be richly rewarded, my life is proof of that. He has changed my life and bewitched my soul, I can never go back, and I will never want to.
God is real, and he is present. How are you going to respond to his invitation?
This week specifically, I have just surrendered everything to the Lord and asked desperately for some direction. I didn't even know what for, but he knew. I was horrified to join a lifegroup, but he made a way and sent me packing. And through that, he has given me the most amazing community of believers in three days, three days. Faith does not go unrewarded, friends. It was through my awesome new lg amigos that I was given the opportunity to spend the better part of three hours worshipping and loving on the Lord. There is no better way to spend a Saturday night.
So in these two new experiences, as well as a song in my car this morning, I got my sucker punch. Straight shot, right to the face. God told me three times now that the good things I have been asking for but feeling like I am unworthy of, are coming, and they are coming quickly. I don't even know what these things are! I have just been asking for his favor and for his wonderful plan for my life to continue on. And I still don't know what it is he has promised, but I know that because he has promised it, it will come and be great when it does, because it will be for his glory.
I really just feel like I stepped out of my comfort zone this week because he asked me to, and he has rewarded me. He wants you to know that he will do the same for you. He is calling out to each of us, all we need to do is take that step and he will hold us up in his grace and mercy. He is inviting us into his holiness and love! I think we need to take a second to weigh the gravity of this truth. The Creator of the universe wants to love us and pursue us; his son wants to romance you and marry you. Just say yes, and he will hold your heart and care for it as you grow and bloom in his Spirit. I promise you will never be able to go back, and you will never want to.
Please just know this: when you give God everything, it has to be done with all your heart. Matthew 6:24 says, "No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate one and love the other, or he will be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money." You cannot have a love affair with God and still give way to worldly desires. You can't half-heartedly be in a relationship with the King of Glory. Pursue him with everything, and you will be richly rewarded, my life is proof of that. He has changed my life and bewitched my soul, I can never go back, and I will never want to.
God is real, and he is present. How are you going to respond to his invitation?
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
The Servant of the Lord
Isaiah 49 says, "1Listen to me, you islands, hear this, you distant nations: Before I was born the Lord called me; from my birth he has made mention of my name. 2He made my mouth like a sharpened sword, in the shadow of his hand he hid me; he made me into a polished arrow and concealed me in his quiver."
Praise Jesus. Everything I am was known to God before I was even conceived; he knew my name, Blynn, before the world had even heard of Brittany Lynn. I find myself sitting in awe of this. I am well aware of the Lord's consistent presence in my life today, and his persistent pursuit of a relationship with me is enough to stop me in my tracks, but the thought of him pursuing me, and planning our relationship and how my walk with him would unfold, before I even existed, is just too much. Who am I, that the Creator would spend as much time on me, as he did on the stars in the unending heavens, or the leaves in the vast forests?
Just when I thought there could not possibly be any more, when it seemed as if every honor available for the King to give had already been bestowed upon me-there is even more to uncover about the beautiful love story between my heavenly Father and I. Not only did he lovingly create my physical body and my spiritual soul, not only did he painstakingly design my journey to him, and my walk with him, not only did he plan for the atonement of my sin, but he also created me to be a weapon against his enemy and a soldier in his army of righteousness. Could there ever be a higher honor than to fight the good fight? to fight for the King of glory? I don't see how. Soldiers who fight for our country say that it is an honor to defend all that America stands for: democracy, freedom, and equality. Is it not an even greater honor to flight for salvation, forgiveness, and unconditional love? I think it is. And I am more than willing to go peacefully into the Lord's draft. I want to fight. And I am ready.
It is almost unfathomable, no, it is entirely without fathom(tehe), that I, a wicked, lost sinner, can be a tool used for the glory of God. It is only by the precious blood of Christ that I am permitted to do so, and that is such a humbling realization to make. I am so amazed at how relentless the Lord has been at putting this on my heart, and making sure I get the message. He has begun to fight so many of the lies that Satan has told me about my sin nature, and my wounded heart believed. My King is fighting for me, and I can feel our enemy withdrawing his troops; his darkness stands no chance against the light that is growing in my heart and is beginning to envelop my soul. Soon enough, there will be no corner left for him to hide in, and no wound lift for him to fester in-I have victory.
Now that I know all of these truths about myself, the Lord, and our alliance against the evil one, I have no choice but to take up my sword and my arrow. I am left with no other option than to wield my light against the darkness. I must fight for God, for glory, for goodness, and for all of creation, because that is what the Father is calling me to do. Because Isaiah 49 also says: "6he says: 'It is too small a thing for you to be my servant to restore the tribes of Jacob and bring back those of Israel I have kept. I will also make you a light for the Gentiles, that you may bring salvation to the ends of the earth.'"
Praise Jesus. Everything I am was known to God before I was even conceived; he knew my name, Blynn, before the world had even heard of Brittany Lynn. I find myself sitting in awe of this. I am well aware of the Lord's consistent presence in my life today, and his persistent pursuit of a relationship with me is enough to stop me in my tracks, but the thought of him pursuing me, and planning our relationship and how my walk with him would unfold, before I even existed, is just too much. Who am I, that the Creator would spend as much time on me, as he did on the stars in the unending heavens, or the leaves in the vast forests?
Just when I thought there could not possibly be any more, when it seemed as if every honor available for the King to give had already been bestowed upon me-there is even more to uncover about the beautiful love story between my heavenly Father and I. Not only did he lovingly create my physical body and my spiritual soul, not only did he painstakingly design my journey to him, and my walk with him, not only did he plan for the atonement of my sin, but he also created me to be a weapon against his enemy and a soldier in his army of righteousness. Could there ever be a higher honor than to fight the good fight? to fight for the King of glory? I don't see how. Soldiers who fight for our country say that it is an honor to defend all that America stands for: democracy, freedom, and equality. Is it not an even greater honor to flight for salvation, forgiveness, and unconditional love? I think it is. And I am more than willing to go peacefully into the Lord's draft. I want to fight. And I am ready.
It is almost unfathomable, no, it is entirely without fathom(tehe), that I, a wicked, lost sinner, can be a tool used for the glory of God. It is only by the precious blood of Christ that I am permitted to do so, and that is such a humbling realization to make. I am so amazed at how relentless the Lord has been at putting this on my heart, and making sure I get the message. He has begun to fight so many of the lies that Satan has told me about my sin nature, and my wounded heart believed. My King is fighting for me, and I can feel our enemy withdrawing his troops; his darkness stands no chance against the light that is growing in my heart and is beginning to envelop my soul. Soon enough, there will be no corner left for him to hide in, and no wound lift for him to fester in-I have victory.
Now that I know all of these truths about myself, the Lord, and our alliance against the evil one, I have no choice but to take up my sword and my arrow. I am left with no other option than to wield my light against the darkness. I must fight for God, for glory, for goodness, and for all of creation, because that is what the Father is calling me to do. Because Isaiah 49 also says: "6he says: 'It is too small a thing for you to be my servant to restore the tribes of Jacob and bring back those of Israel I have kept. I will also make you a light for the Gentiles, that you may bring salvation to the ends of the earth.'"
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