Crazy things are happening. And I have been spiritually exhausted. This morning I asked for a spiritual nap, and God said no. He told me that he gave me this strong heart to run after him without stopping for a reason. He said that I will have constant spiritual revelations for the rest of my life, and if I turn to him and rest in him, I won't need to stop and "nap." First off, what the heck is a spiritual revelation and how is it a revelation if they occur all the time, and why can't I nap?! I'm in college, I like naps. To this God really just said that he will reveal all things to me in time, and he laughed at my nap comment. At least someone thinks I'm funny.
Last night was world mandate tour, woot woot! And can I just say...he's got the whooole world in his hands. When I asked God for my country he said no. He gave me a more specific region, just not a country. But he told me that I am not supposed to know, because someone else will, and that someone will be really important to my life. WHAT?! By this point I was like...RUDE! What is the country? Who is this person? And why is he or she so important?
God knows my heart. As soon as I started to question my understanding of what he was, he explained himself. How legit is that? He is God, he doesn't have to explain himself to me, but he did. He told me that we were really going to start working on my control issues, and things are going to happen on his time, not mine. I know he's good, and his plan is perfect; I trust him, I really do, so I have to let go of my life 100%. I really have to let go of the final straw, and that is totally what I'm doing now. So I'm letting go, and I know he will catch me. There is no doubt in my mind.
After world mandate, some of my awesome friends started declaring healing over my knees. It was intense, because I felt the Holy Spirit, but nothing was being healed. NOT. OKAY. So I asked if he was going to heal me, and he said no, and literally the next second, Josh got a word that there was something blocking healing and I knew immediately that I needed to talk to my dad about some things. God wants to finish healing my soul first, and his will is perfectly okay with me. It's all a blessing. He wants me to have all of his peace and security first. Jeremiah 33:6 says, "Nevertheless, I will bring health and healing to it; I will heal my people and let them enjoy abundant peace and security."
Are you noticing a pattern here? By saying no to me, God is getting me to say yes to him. I am no longer under the chains of planning for tomorrow, because my Father has that under control. I will live each moment in itself to glorify my king. I am so hungry for him, and he has come right now, so nothing else matters.
P.S. I don't need a nap anymore.
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